i hate her, i hate her, i hate her. she ruined everything.. why the fuck did she have to be there that night? if she had never shown up in the picture.. this wouldn't be happening. we wouldn't be strangers. i want to fucking rip her head off. i've never been more angry at a human being in my life. and i'm not angered easily. i don't know why i didn't place any blame on her earlier. shes the worst type of human being. does she even know that she completely ruined something so huge, something so important to me? no. of course she doesn't, she's living her semi-charmed life with no guilt or regret, whereas i have a constant gnaw in the pit of my stomach because of her? i can't walk down a hallway or enter a room without a slight bit of nervousness. and it's all because of her and her stupid fucking hormones. i hope serious ill for her. i hope someone does this to her. because she deserves it. but i bet you my bottom dollar that it won't. her little 14 year old life will go on as she plans it in her mind. she'll have nothing more than a bitter-sweet break-up and a new bf 2 days later. bitch. uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
im not a bad person, i swear, and normally i would never wish a person any harm. but for her? i'll make an exception, because had it not been for her my un-charmed life would be rather great at the moment. amazing actually. but i guess thats how life goes. and i gotta accept it. cus theres nothing else i can do. i really need to start writing in a diary. cus putting so much personal info on the internet is starting to make me paranoid.. and thats never good.
so peace out net-whores.
and love and happiness for everyone.
p.s. except me.
but thats to be expected. nothing works out like i hope it will
p.s.s. in fact i should have never even let myself be so happy.
was it all a giant mistake? i rly hope it wasn't
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